So here it is, August 1st. Wow! Where did July go? And the summer? School starts in just 2-1/2 weeks. At the beginning of July I had these grand plans for celebrating Christmas in July and I even hinted at in several blog posts, but then July disappeared. I have to admit I am constantly coming up with "grand plans" but then have difficulty following through. I'm starting to feel like a creative individual trapped inside my head. Just this past week I had some time to create and I didn't know what to do. I froze. Now whenever I am away from my craft room I cannot quiet down all the ideas in my head. And when I'm good I write them down in numerous notebooks or even in my iPhone. So the ideas are there for me to use, but I froze. It's still a challenge for me to find time to create between work and the girls and household chores and trying to get healthy (another blog post all by itself), so when I have that precious creative time there is just too much pressure to make it count. Plus I have some wonderful ideas in my head but often times my skills affect my output. So I can't recreate my ideas "exactly." Especially as I explore new things like mixed media and painting.
Now as I write this and look at what I'm typing, I am realizing that I need not worry so much about where I am going when I create. I've got to give up control a bit (once again, I could go on and on about this in another blog post). I need not worry so much about creating what's "exactly" in my head.
But I do have to say I am proud that on the day I froze, I still made something. It just wasn't anything I was hoping to accomplish. But I did create for the sake of creating. Now that's an accomplishment!
And Happy belated Christmas in July!
Psst. One more thing. You should go check out Leslie's blog (Words of Me Project). She's hosting a 31 Day Creativity Challenge which is quite inspiring. I had wanted to join in, but stopped before I even began. It's a great idea. Maybe next time.
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i totally understand about getting healthy. i had all these plan when i stopped eating sugar.
then the sugar lows kicked in. and not only did i stop eating (most) sugar but i cut my calories way back.
i've been knocked out on the couch for the last two days. thankfully my boys are 7 (almost 8!) and 9 and able to entertain themselves... for the most part. so a drooling sleepy mommy wasn't doesn't effect their days much.
but holy moly does it effect mine! whew!
this no sugar thing is really really really really really hard. i do allow myself a little cheat here and there because i didn't do this to make myself (and those around me) miserable ;)
i'm not feeling better yet, but i keep readying "the kind diet" and trying to stay positive about the end result.
i just know it will make a difference.
(and i so hope that i can follow through with it)